Sorry...

My give a damn is busted.


Yeah, happy but not. It's the way it usually goes I suppose. Anyways, school. Ah, yeah that is going slowly for me I suppose but it will get done. Work, that is a whole different story I can't find a job. No one wants to hire me I sell myself and make myself look good and in the end no one wants to hire me. I think its my fault, maybe not enough experience in some field or something I've not a clue.

My friend who I'm supposed to move in with, I love her but man sometimes you just don't feel like talking to anyone except a few people - tonight is one of those nights. She's trying to make me feel better but it isn't working. Whatever though, I still like talking to her so it's not like I DON'T want to - it's just I'd rather not.

What else, the new house is alright. I like it well enough, its homey. I'm only here for a few months until I move anyways. So it's all good. I'm tired, I shouldn't be but I am. Trying to get out of the "napping" habit. I need more energy. I wanna lose weight, I always say it but now I have SOME motivation (new school) but still I just, I get lazy and then I stop giving a fuck.


Blah, I feel poopy too. I just, don't care or I care too much. Either or, whatever. I haven't cut in a long time but that doesn't mean I don't SI still cause I do. I still find ways to hurt myself even if I don't realize it. I got rid of my blades but I kinda wish I didn't I liked knowing that if I needed to I could. I can, but it wouldn't be the same since I don't have my blades. For the best I assume though, this "not cutting" thing, I DO hope that I don't relapse again. Ah well. 


 All is fine over here, for now.