Just stuff...

I have so much going on right now. I feel so, I don't know I'm not sure how to explain it. It's weird cause I want to talk to someone but the people I usually run to for it have a lot on their plates and I don't wanna add more to it. It sucks, I really want to have someone to talk to about everything. I just, so much inside that its starting to kill me slowly. I don't feel numb but I feel like crying a lot. I blame it on PMS but when its month long. It's not normal I went through conversations with a friend and we've blamed it on me being in a funk. A 10 year funk? That's not right so I think I need to talk to someone a professional; cause me feeling like this all the time and wanting to cut even when I don't really want to isn't normal at all. Eugh, this sucks. Love sucks - just seen that on the TV ...ANYWAYS I think I'll cut this short, even with everything swimming around my brain I don't feel like dumping it all on here right now. I won't cut I know that I might want to but I'm trying to be strong, for myself and for everyone it's why I cant say anything about how I'm feeling. Trying to be strong and not have anyone wonder whats really wrong with me. When in reality, almost everything is.

PISSED

cock blocked by my own stepdad. wet & horny...wanting to get off, have someone to cyber with but no. wtf dude....wtf I just wanna orgasm while I'm wetttttt. DAMMIT

Random, just like me.

I have another wishlist, haha. These are things that I'd like to buy myself when I get the money. I don't really want these as gifts BUT if you are so inclined, send me a message! Haha, jk. Seriously, theres like 2 things here that are affordable if you want....:D   Mostly electronic stuff haha. I have a doctor appt next week I'll be bringing up my acid reflux & my lack of sleep and my acne and red marks. I also have to make an eye doctor appt for new glasses. I phoned my reserve for funding for school. My package should be in the mail this coming week! It's becoming REAL all I need is money for the applications so I can send those in. I'll be applying for a few courses at Canadore College and as well as Nipissing University   I'm excited! This year is a year of change I'm thinking, been stuck in a rut which is causing me to be in a funk! Which is not fun. Man, I am craving some alone time. Hope I can sleep in tomorrow! Maybe not but then I'll just nap during the day haha. Anyways, thats it.

• Ghd Flat Iron - Lepoard Print GHD Flat Iron
• SkullCandy Headphones TI Chick Pink  
• MacBook Pro 15in MacBook Pro 
• Imac PRETTY IMAC! lol 
• IPod Touch ITouch (can you tell I have a thing for apple products)
• EITHER A Canon camera or  A Nikon camera
• A desk for all that stuff Desks

HAPPY NEW YEAR! Hope this is a good year for everyone who reads my dinky blog. :D