Just stuff...

I have so much going on right now. I feel so, I don't know I'm not sure how to explain it. It's weird cause I want to talk to someone but the people I usually run to for it have a lot on their plates and I don't wanna add more to it. It sucks, I really want to have someone to talk to about everything. I just, so much inside that its starting to kill me slowly. I don't feel numb but I feel like crying a lot. I blame it on PMS but when its month long. It's not normal I went through conversations with a friend and we've blamed it on me being in a funk. A 10 year funk? That's not right so I think I need to talk to someone a professional; cause me feeling like this all the time and wanting to cut even when I don't really want to isn't normal at all. Eugh, this sucks. Love sucks - just seen that on the TV ...ANYWAYS I think I'll cut this short, even with everything swimming around my brain I don't feel like dumping it all on here right now. I won't cut I know that I might want to but I'm trying to be strong, for myself and for everyone it's why I cant say anything about how I'm feeling. Trying to be strong and not have anyone wonder whats really wrong with me. When in reality, almost everything is.