I cant feel....anything.

Right now, I dont feel anything. I dont feel sad, or bored or tired. I dont feel happy either. This isn't a weird feeling for me either, I sometimes dont feel anything at all for days. I was happy earlier, that has subsided for the time being I couldnt even watch a movie cause it was "boring" to me. I need something, to jumpstart my feelings again. I remember, after breaking up with my ex, I was numb for months I've self harmed before but it got worse after we had broken up. I cut to feel something and I'm scared that the longer I go not really feeling anything again the closer I'll get to cutting again. I dont want to start that again, especially since I've so many people happy for me that I'm clean from at least cutting. I dont know, I just dont know. I want to feel something I do, I just cant. I've been crying often lately, the littlest things will make me burst out into a tiny fit of teary eyes. I dont know what I can do to make myself feel something other than cutting right now, I mean writing how I feel (or dont feel) is helping somewhat, but I can feel myself wanting to slip back into that old habit. Earlier, I felt so bored & fustrated that I wanted to cut just for something to do and I know that is NOT healthy in the least. I'm not feeling suicidal or anything, even if I did at least it would be some sort of feeling right? At this point, I just dont feel anything inside. I feel my stomach growling but thats about it. I hate feeling this way, I really do.