No sleep, no nothing.

Never got any sleep last night, I went to bed around 3 or 3:30 and I got woken up at 4-4:30ish by a storm. It got me to thinking, how lonley I can start to feel during one. I already feel fairly lonely, like I've stated before being single is great I'm quite happy this way. Yet during a storm, I just get so lonely for some companionship of some sort. I'm not used to being alone I guess, I'm used to having someone there with me since the ex's & I usually ended up shaking up together while being in a relationship. Last summer, I would cry and have panic attacks during storms. This summer it isnt that bad but still, it could be better. I wish I was one of those people who didnt still feel like having a panic attack and, who actually liked storms! I was never one for them, they say that to be afraid of something, then something in your past must've happend. I dont remember my past that much so I'm not sure as to what happend. Hmm, the thunder is rolling, its a little scary. I'm still not feeling anything, I get a few moments of fleeting giddyness and then, its gone and I'm back to nothingness. Its getting annoying. Hmph.