Sex & babies.

So, basically on Friday I am going to make a purchase its something that I've been wanting for awhile now. I'm quite exicted to buy it, because I'm 22 years old and having it would make my "single life" easier on me. If you cant guess what it is, then you must be young or cant read between the lines there, btw its a "personal massager". So yeah, I just feel that, its time to make that purchase, it's only $20 as much as 2 packs of smokes. Its worth it IMO. I havent had any type of, sexual anything in like 7 or 8 months. So this purchase will be a good one. Not having any sex, has been very very sucky. To be honest, I miss it, a lot. Like, a lot a lot.

Also, I've been "back & forth" on the whole wanting a baby thing. I mean, having my own child would kinda screw my plans up, for like school and everything. Just my life plans, and all that but having one, would also be maybe nice? Idk. I know I could handle a child right now but I dont want to. Babysitting my neice, they say that usually it makes a person NOT want a baby right? Yeah, for me she made me want one even more. When I talk to my friends about school then I think "I dont want one" but when I think to myself I think "I do want one". I've had a few scares and each time, I would hope that I wasnt. Yet when I found out that I wasnt, then I would want one. I think most girls/women go through this as well. I am going to wait, simply because even though I could possibly handle one right now it isnt the right time and when I'm ready for a baby then I'll be blessed with one. I guess I'll wait.

Anyways, its time to bake some cookies with my cousin. I did dishes and took down laundry earlier, time for some cookies!