...random

So yeah. I've been thinking. So this is gunna be random. I dunno, theres this guy, hes sweet & all but he flirts with other girls. I know hes not mine but him telling me all this stuff is bound to get into my head & make me think things meanwhile he might have 4-5 other girls on the side. I dont want to date him, well I'm not sure if I do. I'm confused. I just dont want to get hurt again, cause it REALLY sucks having a broken heart. I was told earlier that I should be "over" my ex, I am. I'm not over how badly my heart was broken though its still not healed. I still cry over it I still get angry when I think of how I cried for nights and nights on end. I thought it was my fault I still wonder that. I hope that I'll be over how badly I was hurt, so I can fully move on with my life and maybe find someone that I'd be willing to make a future with. I also worry that I wont find that person, that I'll end up alone and unhappy with my life cause of the way I keep people out. I have a very hard time letting people in, like REALLY inside me. I let people in some of the way but then its like I put up this, wall and stop them from getting too close to hurt me. I can care about someone immensly but letting someone care about me that much is hard.

I'm gunna leave with one of my new favourite songs.

Caterpillar in the tree
How you wonder who you'll be
Can't go far but you can always dream
Wish you may and wish you might
Don't you worry, hold on tight
I promise you there will come a day
Butterfly fly away