yeah...

Sooo

I still feel crappy. yay? Nah, not yay. Whatever though, ok so. School is still a go. I need to get out of here, but first I need to make money. So I'm taking a job thats nights. Its not that great of a job but its money & something else on my resume.

The way I feel, is so blah. Depressed almost, I feel like crying a lot. Over the silliest things, its so damn stupid. I just want to be happy, or content. I want to smile without having to force it, I dont want my inside to be hurting while my outside has to look happy. It shows in my eyes, I wear my emotions on my sleeve. I just dont want to fake it, I want to be it. I dont know what else to say...