A new beginning *cheers*

So, all this "depression" crap. I've decided to be happy. Well, I'm going to try my damnest to be happy. To start a new start on life, start taking care of myself. Start smiling more. I'm even going to forget that I was ever heart broken and to throw myself out into the wind and let it carry me where it may. Any opportunities that come up, if it seems good I'll do it. I need a change, a big one. Thats coming, next year moving away for school. Going somewhere new, somewhere - where I can "be". I cant wait, its going to be amazing I think. I just want my heart to be full and bursting and love those closest to me as much as I can. To maybe even see if that person thinks of me in "that way" if he does, who knows what can happen if not there are other people out there that will accept me for me. I'll have my moments I'm sure but I'd rather deal with those as they come instead of dwelling on it. I want try new things, experience the unknown. Go where no man has gone before! *cough* sorry, got carried away there. I want to fall in love hard and love immensley. I figured out something else, that I have another reason to live, my neice I would never ever put her parents in the position of asking where her auntie went and break her heart that someone who loved her so much, didnt love herself enough. Ah, thats another thing I am going to love myself and be amazing at it! Haha. I want to start something creative, do something spectecular and amaze everyone. I just want this whole next year, even after the new year, to be great. Its starting now, everything I'm typing is making my heart burst with happyness. I'm going to forget about my ex & his drama and leave it be, let it rest in the past where it belongs, I dont need it nor want it in my life. Got that, I dont want it or him! I miss the relationship but not him. Not ever. I just want to move on and be happy with my future - its going to be amazing and I cant wait for it. Its going to be one hell of a ride but so worth it so so worth it. School, next year it has to be right I can feel it I really hope that I dont crash & fail but if I do I'll try something else, until I succeed and rise to the top and amaze even myself. I dont want to be my worst critic anymore.

I thank Kandee Johnson for giving me the inspiration for this, and bringing light and laughter into my life when I've been upset or depressed. You've inspired me to be happy and to go for what I want in life. Kandee is one of my biggest role models. *smiles big as she finishes this post*